Never Give Up

When an astrologer in Hawaii named Parvati told me way back in the 70's, that I would work in film one day and I never give up, she might as well have been saying I was going to moon. I was a professional dancer in Honolulu at the time and working in film was the last thing I would have seen myself doing. Fast forward 30 years and here I am, living near Culver City and working on a documentary and hoping to produce my first Feature Film.

I have a crowd-funding campaign with IndieGoGo for my doc "The Eternal Rhythm" which I was encouraged to do by Carole Dean at From the Heart Productions, who is not only my fiscal sponsor but she has been my employer for the last 7 months. I have learned so much from her. What a positive and supportive person and I have been very blessed to have been able to work with her all this time. The job will be ending at the beginning of October, so I must remember, when God closes a door, He opens a window and I must trust I will have something to sustain me as far as work goes.

I have my actor demo reel together finally and hopefully will visit the Shawn Brogan agency next week and see if I can get her to represent me. I'm starting from scratch in this city but hey, God is large and in charge and along with making films, I will just have to put myself out there to get some acting gigs along with the thousands of other female actors in this city . Fortunately I'm SAG and that helps a bit. So why am I spewing all this personal chatter out there in hopes someone will read it? Ya got me, but if feels good to write and something came to me as I write about my plans and aspirations. I have this little card that quoted Bill Cosby and it said "decide that you want it more than you're afraid of it." Well, that speaks to me in spades.

There has been this underlying fear within me that I wasn't good enough to work along side these seasoned actors that I have actually worked along side with, Alec Baldwin, Clancy Brown, etc. So silly me. I finally arrived to this place of having the confidence and detachment one needs to function within showbiz. I'm happy to say, with age does come wisdom, but most of all comes a determination and a feeling of being independent of others good opinions. It's a nice place to hunker down and stay awhile. Love to all of you actors out there. Never give up if this is your passion. I'm not going to. Peace!