NOW IS THE TIME

When I held Cloris Leachmans Oscar around 2004, I knew that my life's work and success would happen later in my life. So as I saddle up to my 60's, fortunately looking younger than my years, I feel this incredible force pushing me into projects I can feel passionately about. They are my babies so to speak and if I'm patient, they will reach completion and I will have enjoyed the journey and not be obsessed with the destination.

Everything seems to come together best when I get out of my own way. Yesterday was one of those special days when everything came together and the force nudging me onward and upward was stronger than ever. Confidence is a wonderful thing. Faith even better. I am starting to possess both, more than ever before, and I know I can do it, whatever is required of me. Sometimes my body doesn't respond like I would like it to but on the most part, I get to my appointments, write what is required and create the necessary parts for the whole of my projects.

I'm blessed with a most amazing editor, Jeremy Scripter, and I couldn't do any of the work that I need to do without him. He helped me put together My Actors Reel and I'm a very grateful person today. Another thing that I have so much gratitude for is that I don't have to please anyone but myself and my Higher Power. Now that's an accomplishment in itself.

I made a film in Austin Texas called Dogs Bark about 9 or 10 years ago and one of the lines I had, spoken to my daughter in the film who was down on herself was "real strength is not having to please anyone but yourself." It has finally sunk into my very being the truth of that line. Real strength is not easy to come by but it's what we all need to get thru these trying times.

So as I embrace who I am and what I'm capable of, I know this is 'my time' , the only time there is and I will make the best of it. I will be the artist I was born to be, creating something others enjoy but not wait for or need the good opinions of others. I have actually realized, I'm here to be the minion conduit for God's work and that is all. It is such a freedom to know "all things pass" and in the end the only constant is God. If the truth be told...